Taking strain in level 2

Oh.my.gosh.  I thought I was going to die every single workout this week thus far... today I completed my 4th day of level 2.  I find it so tough, I struggle through it and dread every day before I do my workout.  I don't have enough arm strength to get through all the planks, so I take too many rests.  I can't do the plank twists so I modified it by pushing down on the couch instead of the floor, or I just leave it out and do crunches for the minute she does the plank twists.  But I feel like I'm cheating, or phoning it in like she says.  Granted I still burn 220 - 250 calories, so I must do something right.

The quitter in me whispers that I should just quit and that it's a waste of time anyway and that I'll never be thin and have muscle tone, no matter how hard I try.  But then my pride tells me to keep going and fake it until I make it.

On a positive note my doctor's appointment is made, and I'm ready with my food and exercise diaries and graph of my weigh-ins.  So Monday I'm going to march in there and demand that he helps me through this.  I just hope he won't be an idiot like the doctor in Pretoria who just handed me a script for diet pills and send me on my merry way.  I want to be sure that there's nothing medically wrong that prevents me from losing weight, because I feel like there must be something wrong, or that I am doing something wrong.

Fingers crossed for Monday!